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What type of thinker are you?

Last Wednesday’s post in this Be Fre(ed) Series was focused on giving you tips on how to observe your thoughts without judgment. If you missed last Wednesday’s feel free to catch up: Let’s Think about our Thinking.   Today’s post is will be giving a closer look on what sort of thought pattern that you may be thinking along the lines of. From my experience, I found that there are certain types of thinking patterns that we habitually think and lead us into that negative spiral. The result being we might end up restricting, binging, overexercising, or over indulging and end up with a finished bag of chocolate covered pretzels without really knowing how that happened. Our actions are linked to what we first were thinking about. When we give power to these thoughts and believe in it, it leads us to take action. What I’m sharing today is there are certain patterns of thinking that you don’t have to believe.    I grew up hooked on fantasy novels and Harry Potter was one of …

Part II: How Ana Took Over

*WARNING: this post contains vivid descriptions of what I did to lose weight. Please take aware what I did was very harmful to my body and that this is not a healthy method to lose weight. If this might trigger you, please do not read on. The intention of this post is for you to get to know about my journey of how I became anorexic and how Ana was a manifestation of what had become my habitual critical judgmental way of thinking after 10 years.   More of Ana, less of Gaby   I went back to Edinburgh for the start of year 2. I began researching what foods can help you lose weight, voluminous foods, to eat more veggies and fruits since they are filled with fibre and fill you up. I cut off all carbs and fat. I began incessantly calorie counting. I portioned out my meals. I weighed every single gram of food.   I went on a strict eating and fitness routine. Breakfast was a small bowl of plain oatmeal …

Part I: How I Met Ana

The trigger point The first Summer holiday in my first year of university, I went back home to Jakarta. I met my Mom (don’t get me wrong here, I love her, but she can be quite upfront with her comments) greeted me with a hug and a smile and said, ‘What happened?? You gained weight? You’re so much rounder and LOOK at your THIGHS?!’   Ouch.   At this point, I was so happy to be back home and to see my family, that I just shrugged off the comments and laughed about it, saying that I probably had too much good food.   The next morning, I weighed myself and I was shocked. The scale read 62kg / 137 pounds. So, in my first year away from home, at university I gained around 10 kg / 22 pounds.   I’m 5ft 4 inches (160cm) and my natural weight was usually 52-55 kg (114 – 121 pounds).       How in in the world did this happen??   I had a flashback to all …