All posts tagged: depression

What are you really hungry for?

I love quiet, mid afternoons. Currently I have a cup of coffee in my hand and these two adorable banana muffins courtesy of Minimalist Baker. I added some blueberries into the mix and it’s juice have dribbled all over the muffins when it was in the oven. The muffins are so soft, naturally sweetened from the banana-  that it reminds of these huge cafe size blueberry muffins that I used to get from Costco when I was living in the States back in elementary school.   There’s a story behind these huge blueberry muffins. About once a week my family used to go out to buy a pack of the chocolate muffins and a pack of the blueberry muffins. Before I would head over to the bus stop for school, I would reheat one of these muffins in the microwave and impatiently wait for them. I would then, with a tissue on one hand, take these warmed, soft, gooey blueberry dribbling muffins away with me to the bus stop and delightfully bite into them. Sometimes, …

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Part III: How to feel good living in your body (More of Gaby, Less of Ana)

Today’s post is the last installment in the is 3-part series of my story of how I fell into my disordered eating, my experiences with Ana, and how my journey of recovery.   If you missed the previous two posts: feel free to catch up on the links below: Part I: How I Met Ana Part II: How Ana Took Over   Today’s Part III post is focused on giving you a few tips on how to truly live in your body and feel good in doing it! Based on my experience with my eating disorder, much of it had taken up place in my mind, that I was no longer sensing / denying how my body felt. Yet, our body’s intuitive signals can be a source of guidance for us to feeling our best, if we learn to listen to it.       On Recovery My recovery wasn’t one of those one step forward continuous uphill. On many of the days I felt beaten. There were days where I couldn’t discern which of …

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Be Fre(ed) III: 3 Steps to Turning your Anxiety to Excitement!

One of the things I had to overcome during my recovery was to face my anxiety and fear of gaining weight. To get back to my healthy weight, I had to gain 20 kg / 45 pounds to be back at 55 kg / 121 pounds, which was the weight my body was comfortable and healthy at. Gaining 20 kg was scary, but I learned how to overcome my fearful and anxious thoughts about it. I was anxious and fearful because I had been living with Ana for 2 years. Ana was familiar, safe, and I felt secure and in control when I was with her. But I had to let Ana go to get my life back. Even though recovery was one of the scariest journey I ever took, recovering from my eating disorder was one of the most rewarding things I gained. Like embarking on any journey of anything new and unfamiliar, there will be feelings of anxiety and fear. But these feelings will go away. Trust me when I say that recovery, …