All posts tagged: healing

What are you really hungry for?

I love quiet, mid afternoons. Currently I have a cup of coffee in my hand and these two adorable banana muffins courtesy of Minimalist Baker. I added some blueberries into the mix and it’s juice have dribbled all over the muffins when it was in the oven. The muffins are so soft, naturally sweetened from the banana-  that it reminds of these huge cafe size blueberry muffins that I used to get from Costco when I was living in the States back in elementary school.   There’s a story behind these huge blueberry muffins. About once a week my family used to go out to buy a pack of the chocolate muffins and a pack of the blueberry muffins. Before I would head over to the bus stop for school, I would reheat one of these muffins in the microwave and impatiently wait for them. I would then, with a tissue on one hand, take these warmed, soft, gooey blueberry dribbling muffins away with me to the bus stop and delightfully bite into them. Sometimes, …

Be Fre(ed) IV: Let’s Think about our Thinking

If you have missed the series, feel free to catch up! Click on the links below: Be Fre(ed) I: Be Fre(ed) to Live the Life you Want! Be Fre(ed) II: Let’s Cultivate Self-Love! Be Fre(ed) III: 3 Steps to Turning your Food Anxiety / Fears to Excitement for your future!   This post is focused on giving you my 3 steps in establishing new mental pathways that are loving, positive, helpful not only for your recovery, but it is essential for your life. This is super important as your thoughts manifest your life. What you think, causes you to feel and act a certain way. In order to have a life that is filled with love, joy, hope, kindness, peace, we need to think of thoughts that are lovely, joyful, hopeful, kind and peaceful.     This process will literally break down the neurons in your mind that are not helpful to you, wire them out of you brain, and grow new ones. With practice, you’ll be an expert in your becoming your own thought …

Part I: How I Met Ana

The trigger point The first Summer holiday in my first year of university, I went back home to Jakarta. I met my Mom (don’t get me wrong here, I love her, but she can be quite upfront with her comments) greeted me with a hug and a smile and said, ‘What happened?? You gained weight? You’re so much rounder and LOOK at your THIGHS?!’   Ouch.   At this point, I was so happy to be back home and to see my family, that I just shrugged off the comments and laughed about it, saying that I probably had too much good food.   The next morning, I weighed myself and I was shocked. The scale read 62kg / 137 pounds. So, in my first year away from home, at university I gained around 10 kg / 22 pounds.   I’m 5ft 4 inches (160cm) and my natural weight was usually 52-55 kg (114 – 121 pounds).       How in in the world did this happen??   I had a flashback to all …